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Apr. 4th, 2005 @ 09:59 pm (no subject)
*sigh*
I hope you all realise that a starvation diet is under 900cal. Under 1000cal is extreamly unhealthy so no, you are not doing it the healthy way.
And if you were you wouldn't be ana/mia/ednos. To be anoretic is to be ill, sick, very unhealthy. To be bulemic you need to purge which can kill you.
There is no healthy eating-disordered person.
I wish people would see that.
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imperfectdoll:
Jan. 1st, 2005 @ 09:50 am (no subject)
happy new year everyone!

let this year be the year we all reach our goal and stay healthy and strong!
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sleepingstar2:
Dec. 21st, 2004 @ 09:11 am (no subject)
Sarah and Sara have brought up some points that affect me quite strongly. And, Sara, I agree. When I'm underweight, people treat me like I'm better than they are. Like I'm special. Like I'm devastatingly beautiful.

When I'm "healthy"? Not so much. Sure, I want to be healthy... but only if people will still look at me and go "God, she's stunning." And, of course, they never will.

But I think there's hope. Nothing says we have to be unhappy while we are losing weight. Nothing says we have to be in pain. There are people in this world who manage to be happy in concentration camps, in impoverished rural communities, in countries ridden by famine and war, and they don't eat much either. Here we are in first-world countries, leading safe and abundant lives. If losing weight makes us feel pain, that's pain that's wholly caused by what's in our heads and, thus, is under our control.

I think it's possible to be content and happy while eating very little. I just think it takes a shift of perspective. Obviously I'm no master of that perspective shift, because I wouldn't have thick thighs if I was. But I've been there (I think we all have) and I think we can maintain that mental/emotional state if we work at it. Thoughts?
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nycteri:
Dec. 20th, 2004 @ 07:54 am hello everyone!!!
Name my real name is sarah
Heightim about 5 5
CW I am 149.5
HW my hugest is 205 but I was pregnant and really sick.. after I gave birth I was about 175...
LW my lowest was about 117 and that was over 10 years ago.
STGW 140
LTGW 125
And pictures if you want. I will have to get back to you on that one...
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sleepingstar2:
Dec. 20th, 2004 @ 09:13 am (no subject)
Sara, I know exactly what you mean. I have gotten the same thing from both of the boyfriends I've had while I've been ana.

"I'm worried about you because you still worry about your weight, not because you're thin enough to worry about. If you were really in trouble, you'd be way thinner."

I've heard that the whole time I've been ana. "You're too fat to be anorexic." "You eat too much to be anorexic." "It's not like you're rail-thin or anything." This makes me want to drag out my ana trophies: "Yeah, but I had a heart attack two years ago," "Yeah, but I also go days without eating anything," "Yeah, but I used to have a BMI of 17 and I'm more obsessed now than I was then."

I want to grab him by his shoulders, look into his eyes, and say, "Look. This disease is in my head, not in my body. I can point you to hundreds of girls on LJ who are overweight or obese and who are as anorexic as they come. Many anorexic girls die while they're still overweight, because, due to potassium and magnesium imbalances from starvation, their hearts cannot support their bodies. If you wait until a girl looks like she's dying, she's already as good as dead."

When I finally broke down and went to a doctor for help two years ago, I confessed that I was anorexic. He weighed me, looked me up and down, and said, "Well, it looks like you've lost a lot of weight since last year. You look great! You were towards the high side of a normal weight, but now you don't have anything to worry about."

I pointed to the weight chart on the wall. "By your own chart, I'm now nine pounds medically underweight. I'm telling you that I've been starving myself and I want help."

"Relax," he said. "You've probably just been taking things too seriously. Just stop your diet, but make sure everything stays under control. The main challenge in going off a diet is making sure old habits don't return. You don't want all that weight coming back in two months now, do you?"

"You don't understand," I said. "I eat one frozen dinner every day, nothing more, and I work out two or three hours a day. I'm underweight. I know what anorexia is, because I have it."

"That's great; I work out forty-five minutes a day when I get a chance. Anyway, you're not anorexic. If you were, you'd be at least ten pounds lighter."

I cannot believe there are still medical professionals out there who tell girls that they're too fat to be anorexic... but, now that I think about it, it WAS a very effective form of inspiration.
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nycteri:
Dec. 18th, 2004 @ 06:05 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: awake
Hi all,

Just like everyone here, I'm battling to go down that road up ahead. Of course, there's a lot of miles inbetween me and my goal but well.. Ah, I should first start with the stats.

Name: Aileen
Height: 5'3"
CW: 203.5
HW: 228
LW: Can't remember =/
STGW: 190 by mid-Jan
LTGW: 130 before the end of '05'

There you have it. The person who is now and hope to be in the near future.
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candle
slytherin_dove:
Dec. 18th, 2004 @ 11:01 am (no subject)
Name: Nicole
Height: 5 foot 9
CW: 270-ish
HW: 286
LW: 135 (in 2001)
STGW: 200
LTGW: 125

I was anoretic for many years, starting when I was nine. That escalated into bulimia, something I still battle with. In 2002, I developed PCOS which wreaked havoc on my metabolisim and, despite desperate attempts to stay thin, my body over-rode me and I gained 150 pounds in a year. I've been working to lower that weight (now because of a health issue and not a 'goddamnit i'm fat' feeling,) but progress has been slow and old habits die hard. I've recently discovered that I'm down a pants size. Very happy about this.
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big_city_girl:
Dec. 18th, 2004 @ 09:17 am (no subject)
Diana

5'5"
HW: 140ish
LW: 108
CW: 130ish (no scale these days)
STGW: 110

I'm going to take the risk of coming off as a complete grump and start with a mini-rant.

Some people around me know that I'm anorexic. Some can't accept that I am, because my weight is healthy and my hips are big. The ones who do believe me only act differently when I'm not eating. They feel the need to "save me". However, if I let them see me eat one single thing, they relax and assume things are great. Then, the next week or so, when they see that I'm not eating again, they say things like "Whoa! I thought things were going so well! I thought you were all better."

Now, I'm definitely not one of those anorexics who needs people around her to be afraid and take notice. I don't do it to control other people. But it's so laughable, so shallow: people tend to equate the disorder with the behavior. As if we couldn't be anorexics if we eat a bowl of soup and a cup of yogurt in the evenings. As if we couldn't be anorexics if we ever once lose control for a weekend and gain a few pounds. As if, as long as they see us place one paltry morsel between our lips every day, they have no further duty to "save us".

Once we get thin enough for people to be seriously afraid, the disorder has already progressed beyond saving. Once we start to look as sick as we actually are, it's far too late.

Think about it. Let's assume I weigh 130 now. Let's assume, further, that I can restrict at 800 calories per day, with a 500 calorie workout. Accounting for occasional exhaustion/loss of control, that means (for me) that I'll lose approximately two pounds per week after the initial big drop. (I've been doing this for a long time, so I know what to expect.) At 110 I look great, or so everyone tells me. At 100 I'd probably look a little sick, and people would worry. That's fifteen weeks of hard starvation, or nearly a third of a year. Fifteen weeks deeper into this illness before people start to wonder if they should talk to me.

It's a good thing I don't want the attention, girls, because I'd have a very long road ahead of me.

Anyone else in the same boat?
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nycteri:
Dec. 18th, 2004 @ 09:40 pm (no subject)
Hehe, decided to make you two maintainers =P
Anyway, I did really badly today. Completely binged. Buut...it's all good. I'll just eat a bit less tomorrow, exercise more.

Tomorrow I want you towrite down a list of the top 10 things you want to acheive in the next month. You can post them here if you like, I will be.

Haha, and feel free to promote the comm =P

xoxo
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_foreverdead_:
Dec. 16th, 2004 @ 07:01 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: goodgood

Name: Kristen
Height: 5'8''
CW: i think about 154lbs
HW: ever? about 165(which was a few years ago)... lately.. about 156
LW: 118lbs (junior/senior year of high school)
STGW: 144lbs
LTGW: 130lbs

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