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Dec. 20th, 2004 @ 09:13 am (no subject)
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nycteri:
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From:silent_touch
Date:December 22nd, 2004 10:08 pm (UTC)
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my god.. how do you live with all of these idiots around you??

that's horrible... but i will say that with the doctor thing.. i went to a doctor a couple years ago.. when i weighed about 118lbs.. (i'm 5'8'') and i was tired of falling out and getting shaky and not being able to stand.. and getting dehydrated... so i told a doctor at the ER.. that i thought i was anorexic (i really didn't know.. b/c i didn't realize what i was doing had a name really.. and i didn't know what all that name.. or term consisted of).. and he looked at me.. and weighed me.. and said that i was perfect for my height... i knew he was lying b/c when i was a couple years younger (which would've been around 13 or 14) another doctor told me i was right for my age and height.. when i was 160.. -_- so yea.. i loved how thin i was.. but i hated how i felt.. and i wanted him to help me.. so all he did was give me an IV.. and tell me and my parents.. that we needed to work together.. to help me find that food isn't bad... that i should take flinstone vitamins.. and it'll build appetite.. and hopefully food would b/c my friend again.... i didn't take vitamins.. but food became my friend.. and voila.... i'm 154 pounds... so screw the rules.. i know what i want. and i just didn't appreciate him saying that i had a slight ED or i was thinking i might have one (which i was.. but he was making it sound like i was putting on a show).. simply b/c my bones didn't poke out everywhere.. only my hip bones and collar bones did.. -_- so ehm.. yes.. i can sympathize with you all. <3


Kristen
From:nycteri
Date:December 23rd, 2004 03:42 pm (UTC)
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Kristen, I'm horrified. Flintstone vitamins? That's sick and funny at the same time. Vitamins don't build appetite.

You're right. If you know what you want, go get it. To hell with anybody who tells you differently.
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From:silent_touch
Date:December 24th, 2004 01:28 am (UTC)
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why are you horrified.. b/c of what i said.. or b/c what you have to go through? and yea.. i was like.. Flintstone vitamins.. are you kidding? lol.. but yea... actually i've been thinking about taking some my mom takes.. just so i can get the shit i need.. ya know? but newho..

and the difference between now and last time.. is i'm older.. and wiser.. and i know what i want.. but i'm not going to go crazy with it.. i personally.. don't like those models or w/e who have ribs and hip bones seriously protruding from their skin... collar bones.. hip bones poking out a tad.. and thin wrists.. are favorites of mine.. but i do'nt want to look like a stick.. ya know? so once i reach a certain weight.. i might decide to go a few pounds lower.. but i'm going to control myself... so thanks for the support. :) and yea.. to hell with em' aaaaall. lol

Kristen