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From:silent_touch
Date:December 22nd, 2004 10:19 pm (UTC)
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ok.. so what exactly are you proposing? lol i'm sorry.. i'm having difficulty today concentrating.. so break it down for me. lol

i mean.. i understand that you want to be healthy.. w/out people thinking you're a chubster or whatever.. b/c as soon as you get hecka thin.. people notice you.. i know.. it's happened to me too.

and yo'ure right.. we shouldn't have to be in pain.. emotionally or mentally... or even physically.. so yea...

i'm just curious to know what you're proposing.

Kristen
From:nycteri
Date:December 23rd, 2004 03:36 pm (UTC)
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What I'm proposing is this:

I'm going to ditch the expectation that restricting will hurt and will mess up my life. It has in the past, but there were times when it was wonderful... and I'm going to hang on to the pleasant parts of weight loss and ditch the pain. If I should happen to feel pain or discomfort or craving, I'm going to relax, smile, and send it on its way. Celebrating pain can make it easier to handle sometimes... but it's also a very short road to anorexic burnout, self-injury, cardiac damage, and so forth. I feel experienced enough now to do without those aids. And I really can't handle another heart attack.

I'm going to be grateful for the food I do eat, and savor every nibble slowly with the knowledge that I am nourishing my body while still losing weight. That which I eat will be enough... because this restriction phase is perfectly natural and okay. There are still a number of cultures in which eating infrequent tiny meals is the norm, cultures where nobody eats very much at all.

A while back I was reading a study on the sociology of fasting. Apparently, preindustrial Catholic societies AVERAGED 600-800 calories per day for the forty days of Lent. Think about it... a whole culture fasting for forty days together. It didn't have to ruin them or destroy them. Neither does it have to ruin or destroy me.

This time, I'm not going to wait until I'm underweight to be happy. I'm going to see if it's possible to be happy on the way down.
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From:silent_touch
Date:December 24th, 2004 01:20 am (UTC)
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well i think that's a very good idea.. and it kind of reminds me of what i'm doing.. i despise for people to tell me that anorexics don't eat anything... they do.. but they limit theirselves to however much.. eat here.. eat there.. don't eat here.. don't eat there... i mean being anorexic has a HUGE definition.. ya know? so i eat what i want.. TO AN EXTENT... and i'm happy about it.. i won't starve myself.. i'll fast if i feel i have the will power to.. but i'm going to be happy while i watch the pounds float away.. b/c you can go into severe depression if you wait to be happy until the very end... b/c the end.. well most of the time.. you're not sure what the end is.. you have a goal weight.. get there.. adn then yo'ure unhappy.. so i think it's good that you're going to stay happy through out it all.. i believe it'll help motivate you.. :)

Kristen